Sometimes...

Around this time of the year, our minds start to go millions of different directions. Sometimes (like today) I wake up and can't wait to crawl back into my bed at the end of the day. So here I am, back in my bed and instead of laying here listening to the million of thoughts I have, I decided to just vent on my blog... hey that's what its here for right? So if you wanna read on... go for it, if you don't want to hear what I have to say with my current swirling mind, I hope you enjoyed your Monday.

Sometimes the real world just sucks. I envy my high school kids some days because they have it so easy! Finances suck, rent sucks, student loans suck, drama sucks, being tired sucks, getting up at the crack butt of dawn sucks, wood floors suck (I need to sweep mine), the top of dressers suck (they get so damned cluttered), and white sheets suck (especially when you have wood floors).

Sometimes I am just too indecisive. EVERYDAY I question what I want to get my certifications for my Master's in. Some days its math. Other days I HATE numbers. Today I want it in English, but not the essay side of it. Other days I really want to do PE and Health, but don't want to be in sweats all day. What the heck do I want to teach? Some days I even think German would be fun... woozers, I need to figure it out.

And EVERYTHING costs money. I am not a big fan of that! Rent seriously is like buying fireworks... why not just light the money on fire and watch it burn? Groceries sure run out a lot faster when you buy them yourself (and live with three girls). And seriously is it necessary for Tide to cost ten dollars or more? Damn I just want clean clothes and panties.

And sometimes I am a complete, selfish grump, and need to pull my head out of my butt... as in RIGHT NOW!

I need to look at the glass half FULL, not empty! I have so much to be thankful for its amazing. I am truly blessed! We all are! Yes I can't figure out what I want my teaching certificates in, but I got into a Master's program ON MY OWN! I did it! Yes finances suck, but I have a nice house that I live in with three of my best friends, food to eat every day, a working washer and dryer for my clothes, a full time job that has full benefits, making me completely insured, and a car that is reliable and cute at the same time with it's little ski rack.

Sometimes we feel sorry for ourselves. We play the "poor me" card. I hate that! WHO CARES! We have to remember that life is about ourselves. Its about serving God and others. I am serving God by following His plan and moving to Idaho. He has made it all work this far, so I know He will keep making it work. Secondly, we should live our lives to serve OTHERS! Sometimes I feel that I don't do much at my job, but I know that I make a difference, whether big or small in those student's lives. How are you serving God and others? Are you playing the "poor me card"? If you are...STOP! Remember that each of us has God, family and friends that love us UNCONDITIONALLY. What can we do to show that back to them?

Lastly, sometimes we just need to lay in bed and blog to kick our own butt's into gear to look at life in a positive light and know that EVERYTHING will ALWAYS work out the way it is meant to.